“The artist’s job is not to succumb to despair, but to find an antidote for the emptiness of existence.” -Woody Allen.
I am not, by any stretch of the imagination, an artist. But I do love writing.
When I set myself the terrifying personal goal of owning my story in a very public way, I never expected to find an audience. And I never expected to stumble on an antidote for the seeming emptiness of existence:
Finding hope in the most unexpected places.
Here I am, still in the process of writing a chapter book-style reflection of the past three years of my life. The good, the bad, and the ugly.
And yes, there have been some shit-house ugly moments.
But in a state of total brokenness, through the raw and agonising grief of a cheating husband who walked out (and went on to start a new life and family without me), I found freedom, wholeness and peace in a God who specialises in turning my shit-house ugly moments into sparkles, snowflakes and a pink guitar.
No, God is not my genie making my wishes come true.
In fact, I usually get exactly what I don’t want!
But even though this is not the life story that I chose or wanted, everyday I truly and whole-heartedly thank God for having different plans for my life than what I had for myself.
20something and divorced is my space to do what I love: Write!
Not because I think my story is particularly special. It’s not. And not because I think I am fabulously insightful. I’m not. I can only lay claim to being a quirky mess who has an abundant life thanks to Jesus. Yes, I found the Jesus thing to be real.
What can you expect?? Honesty. Truth. Pain. Anger. F-bombs. And grace. Amazing grace.
So, why make my ramblings public?? Some of the greatest qualities that I admire in others are honesty, openness, vulnerability and authenticity. If I am to truly own my story, it should be with the openness and authenticity that comes from sharing our struggles and celebrating our scars.
Now then, to get started… Pour yourself a pot of tea – or perhaps something stronger! – and make your way over to Chapter 1: Disaster Friday…